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emilianatalia — Tue, 07 Aug 2012 05:19:46 -0400

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emilianatalia — Tue, 07 Aug 2012 04:38:38 -0400

LDR 30 day challenge

emilianatalia — Wed, 25 Jul 2012 00:36:03 -0400

Emilia + Joseph

This is for everyone(;

emilianatalia — Mon, 21 May 2012 00:46:21 -0400

This is for everyone(;

Don’t lose hope, you can get through it, I know you can

emilianatalia — Mon, 21 May 2012 00:44:28 -0400

Don’t lose hope, you can get through it, I know you can

I'm better than ever

emilianatalia — Sun, 13 May 2012 04:04:51 -0400

It took 5months to get over my ex, but I’m not fully over, but luckily I’m moving on slowly and I can see him and not have a breakdown. I do wish I had a boyfriend, but I always have to realize that true love happens totally unexpediadely, you can’t predict when you’re going to fall in love. Those words come into my mind everyday and that’s what gets me through the day. And I can’t wait till a man comes into my life that will be better than all the others that came into my life, I’m here an waiting an trust me I’m worth falling in love with.

"you can fucking die in a hole for all i care, cuz i’m already dead thanks to you."

emilianatalia — Fri, 27 Jan 2012 00:34:14 -0500

“you can fucking die in a hole for all i care, cuz i’m already dead thanks to you.”

- me.

"Can I marry inanimate objects and no longer feel lonely since they can’t just simply get up..."

emilianatalia — Mon, 26 Dec 2011 04:26:36 -0500

“Can I marry inanimate objects and no longer feel lonely since they can’t just simply get up and leave?”

- Emilia’s late night thoughts

Hurts

emilianatalia — Mon, 26 Dec 2011 02:04:19 -0500

It hurts to see the one you still love post lovey dovey posts with their significant other 3

Happy holidays

emilianatalia — Mon, 26 Dec 2011 00:54:25 -0500

Hope everyone’s having a happy holiday (: don’t forget that your all beautiful in every way, shape, and form

"the sad girls don’t deserve to be sad"

emilianatalia — Thu, 22 Dec 2011 00:33:24 -0500

“the sad girls don’t deserve to be sad”

"I hope she gives you herpes"

emilianatalia — Thu, 22 Dec 2011 00:32:18 -0500

“I hope she gives you herpes”

im tired

emilianatalia — Thu, 22 Dec 2011 00:25:00 -0500

Im tired of always being sad, depressed, insecure, lonely, fat, ugly, unwanted, unloved, unhappy, sick of living, crying, being mad, lying to everyone, putting on a fake smile, lied to, neglected, left in the gutter, treated like dirt, kicked around, stabbed in the back, invisible, quiet, mad, betrayed, messed with, not taken seriously, pissed off at the world, putting my anger out on people that actually care, but i can’t tell, tired of life, sick of this town. Someone help me escape.

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emilianatalia — Mon, 19 Dec 2011 23:38:08 -0500

Acne

emilianatalia — Wed, 14 Dec 2011 15:08:00 -0500

for the past 5 years i’ve been suffering with acne. I was the first to get it in my school, and it brought my confidence level down, and it brought my insecurity level up. People weren’t nice when it came to acne, they’d always say, “I wonder if you can connect the dots” “You should use proactive” “You got something on your face.” I got so fed up with people, i wanted to die. I became depressed, i didn’t want to go anywhere. I would sit in my closet and read books all day. I actually did try using proactive, but it irritated my skin making it look worse. I used a bunch of different acne medications, and i was begging my mom to take me to a dermatologist, but she didn’t see anything wrong with my skin. I dreaded going to school everyday, or going out to the mall and having people look at me thinking they were judging me in the mind. I had long hair so i would hide behind my bangs hoping no one would ask me why i always had my hair down, i never wanted to put my hair up in a pony tail. I hated taking pictures, and whenever me and my family go on vacation we take a crap load of pictures, they would be beautiful pictures, but then you’d look at my face and it would be noticeable i would edit all my pictures before i put them online. I hated when people always complained about how they had one tiny blemish and they’d always come to me for advice. I’m not an acne guru, i can barely take care of myself. When i started high school i was shy because i didn’t want people to think i was crazy, or weird. i was jealous of the pretty girls and always stared at them. Some girls even asked me why i don’t wear make-up, i’m against wearing make-up because i don’t wanna look fake and i just don’t like the way i look with make-up on. I used to make youtube videos, but then i stopped because i was afraid to see myself online and i didn’t want people from school seeing me and then making fun of me. I’m afraid to own a pocket mirror, because i just don’t like the way i look, i used to be afraid to look into a mirror, but i don’t mind mirrors that much anymore, but i do still hate the small ones. I used to always be afraid of going into photo booths, because the lights were so bright and the camera captured your every blemish. Whenever my friends asked if i wanted to hang out i’d make up an excuse and totally lie to them. Whenever i had a boyfriend, i would always try to hide from them. They’d ask to hang out and i would always come up with the excuse that, “my mom won’t let me go out.” and i never even asked my mom if i could go somewhere because she wouldn’t mind if i went, but i did mind. Every relationship that I’ve had i screwed up because i was scared. I was even told that i was ugly as fuck and that i wouldn’t ever get a boyfriend, and i believed it. Old memories are stuck in my head. Middle school was hell to me and i sure don’t want high school to end up that way. I’m trying to keep my head held up high and i have friends to help me out whenever i’m sad, but i just wish the bullies knew what they were doing to people that have the same problems like me. I don’t need someone tearing me down. I express myself through art, i make abstract work, because even the weirdest things can be beautiful to the naked eye. Society has come up with skinny girls, with clear skin, and perfect hair, and amazing clothes to be the best looking girls in the world, but honestly we’re all perfect in our own way. If someone tends to hurt you, they shouldn’t matter to you. I’ve given up on people because i was sick of the way they treated me, and to this day they don’t understand what happened. I’m happy to say my acne is clearing up because my mom decided to find me a dermatologist even though i have to take medication everyday until i’m 19 its better than having to go through the whole depressed cycle all over again. Life’s an amazing thing, people just make it hell.

just great
emilianatalia — Tue, 13 Dec 2011 22:08:00 -0500

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emilianatalia — Tue, 13 Dec 2011 21:36:15 -0500

Tears Hide Her Smile

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LDR 30 day challenge

This is for everyone(;

Don’t lose hope, you can get through it, I know you can

I'm better than ever

"you can fucking die in a hole for all i care, cuz i’m already dead thanks to you."

"Can I marry inanimate objects and no longer feel lonely since they can’t just simply get up..."

Hurts

Happy holidays

"the sad girls don’t deserve to be sad"

"I hope she gives you herpes"

im tired

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Acne

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